| it has almost been a year ... somehow, revisiting these entries reminds me that the pain did not ease... at all. each word written and read takes me back in time, and brings me to the brink of tears. have i made a mistake for not being there? to bid my final goodbye? at that time, i rationalized that i did all i could. did i really? sometimes, i wonder. part of me will always regret not being there, not seeing you one last time. yet, you were long gone. you were welcomed into heaven with angels singing, friends smiling. remaining was what was left of you - souless, lifeless. i know that you are still watching over us from above, protecting us, and loving us. grandpa, those two weeks will forever live with me. you will never be forgotten. i <3 u. |
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| April 14, 2009 ...
Peter Pan puzzle framed...
2nd puzzle started...
A wonderful surprise from someone amazing :) ... thank you... i like brown package ... but i <3 what was written on the package and the question that followed ...
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| On my way to the chiro today...
I had coffee (+ napkin) and cigarette in the same hand....
Lighter the other...
Lit cigarette... and I felt heat... =X.... set napkin on fire in the middle of Ctown...
lovely =_=... |
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| for everything...
2009.03.27 |
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| and I am not even sure why... better yet? I have no reason to feel this way... what is going on? |
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